I’m socially awkward.
I wasn’t as a child. I was obnoxious, outgoing and a bit of a daredevil. I don’t know what happened to me. 😛
Crowds make me uncomfortable- sometimes running in public still freaks me out. I’ve mostly gotten over it in home town. Granted the bridge still stresses me out. For crying out loud, I still sprint across the damn thing. Last weeks long run saw the bridge mile clocking in at 9:14. Which doesn’t sound that speedy until you take into account my stupid shins and the fact that I walked part of that mile too.
Running in work town? Oh hell no. I do it very rarely. What if people see me? I don’t want customers to see me in a sweaty mess. And shorts? Forget it. If I run in work town, I wear capris, no matter what time of year. Throw in the fact that I only have only the one 4 mile route and I don’t run there very often. Too uncomfortable.
The week has been running around 105ish in hometown. Mid 70’s at 7 am. Yay. ðŸ˜ðŸ˜ I ran in work town on Monday- tried to be invisible. Wednesday was my half day and I wanted to run but 100+ temps? Not so much. Whereas work town was a lovely 72. Decisions, decisions.
I stepped outside my comfort zone. I ran in work town. On a new path. In shorts. In the middle of the day. There were people around. It’s summer in a beach town- what was I thinking?
It freakin’ rocked.
Don’t get me wrong- those 4 miles kicked my ass. First I was cold then I was hot. The path I thought I was on turned out to be not what I thought. My shorts rode up every 5 steps and I spent most of the run trying to discreetly dig them out of my crotch and yanking them down. Cover those legs! My legs hurt, my shins ached. I was sinking in the sand. The pavement seemed too hard. I lost the cover to my new handheld Orange Mud and didn’t even notice for 1/2 a mile. How? I was breathing like I was sprinting but I so wasn’t. I walked more than I would have liked. People saw me.
But —
I ran through a tunnel of Cypress trees–
Like I said- this run rocked. Can’t wait to push my boundaries ( a little) again with a longer run. And maybe with different shorts. 😛
How do you push your boundaries?
I used to avoid running with people around. And I am still working on it to an extent. But, I have really worked on be comfortable in my own skin this year. Which has resulted in 3 runs with just a sports bra, it was so freeing! Now they were all out of town in the middle of nowhere but there was still traffic. At first it bothered me but now, I love the thought. And I am going to do it again sometime! 🙂
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I don’t know if I could run in just a sports bra. Shorts are enough of push right now but I know that is also partly due to the fact that I am a few pounds heavier than I would like to be. I’m going to keep working on it though. 🙂
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I can completely relate. I am not a bigger person but was heavier in HS and even my dad had told me “you are too fat to run.” That is when I quit for a long time. Even now it is still hard for me to muster up the inner strength to believe in myself. But I know I am good enough regardless of the number on the scale and size of my thighs! You are too!!
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Wow! What gorgeous scenery! You are really lucky to live in such a beautiful area, heat notwithstanding.
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It was so pretty- I was kicking myself for not checking it out sooner!
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Good for you!!
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Thank you!
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Wait, if we go outside our comfort zone it turns out ok?!?! Gasp lol. Totally kidding.
I always worry that I look like hell when other come upon me. Then I stopped caring. I feel good when I’m active and that’s the only person I have to please.
Great work and the scenery is gorgeous.
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Right? Who knew?
I was better about not caring what people thought for a while. Then I put on a few pounds, got a little slower and all the doubts came creeping back up. I am trying to work on it again.
Thank you!
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This morning I overslept a bit (considering all week it’s only been 4 hours of sleep, I needed it!) so I knew I’d be running when the sun came up instead of under the cover of darkness, but I really wanted to run (<— can't believe I said that!) so I took off. Black capris with pink stripe, black and white tie dye top that is 2 sizes too big and a big yellow truckers hat. I didn't match at all. And I told myself I could do just 2.7 miles and not go all the way to the main road. In the sunshine. But, I went to the main road, in the sunshine and did 3.2 miles 🙂 I'm getting better at it!
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Matching’s overrated right? I am so impressed that you get up in the morning to run- that is so hard! Especially after what seemed to be an exhausting week! I need to work on running in public in work town in shorts–it’s too damn hot here for misguided modesty!
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