I have been struggling with motivation all year. In fact I am struggling with lots of things these days. I thought I was handling life since lockdown better- I mean I was a homebody before and I still got to go to work so in some ways not much changed.
But so much did. And that was before the job/office transfer.
I’m tired all the time, I come home after work and fall asleep. I sleep in on the weekends but still pass out for naps. I am having trouble sleeping and having trippy dreams when I do.
I’m not running, barely moving. Did I mention my new office is a 2 story with stairs and my daily steps are still crap? I know I feel better when I run but I can’t seem to make myself get out the door. There are times I change into my running clothes with the intention to run but end up napping instead. I set alarms to get up in the morning and am barely conscious as I hit snooze. I ran exactly twice in the last 2 weeks. One very hot 2.5 miler and a mashed up 5K-5Miler for Giants San Jose Virtual.
I am eating better than I was- both pre lock down and intense snacking in the beginning of lock down. That’s something, right?
Years ago, I used to get depressed around May- June. Well, I called it my dark place but I always linked it to graduation. Everyone would be posting about their plans post high school (small town life) and I was not happy in my job then. I worked with good people and made decent money for the time but that time of year would remind me that I could have tried harder or made different choices. I haven’t felt like that in years as I really do like my current job and coworkers so I don’t think I can blame my current ennui on that. 2016 would have been a different story but that’s not the point.
Actually, I don’t know what the point is. I also don’t know if it matters.
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It’s a tough time we’re all going through. I think all of this self-isolation is making more and more people depressed. Reach out to a friend and talk to them and see if that helps. We could all probably stand to do more of that right now.
You are very correct, i find i have a hard time doing that though. Which is silly, I know.
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Not silly at all. It’s hard for me too but I know I have to do it anyway.
I always get in a funk about mid January…
Stupid funks. Boo.
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Makes sense you’re struggling with motivation. Run on over to my site for some fresh ideas to restart. Thanks, Patrick
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