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15- Anxiety

I don’t have all the answers.
We’re making it up as we go.
I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve forgotten something vitally important.
I feel like I am letting everyone down.
I’m still waiting for the other shoe to drop.

I can’t shut my brain up these past few weeks. I can barely sleep Sunday and Monday nights. I need to run more than I am, not just because I am out of shape but my brain needs the cutoff. That’s one plus to being so out of running fitness, all my brain power goes to trying not break on the run.

I told myself to run everyday after work last week, but I didn’t. On Thursday I swapped the run with venturing off for groceries after work. My hope was that Thursday evening would be better than Saturday morning. It wasn’t bad but it was errily quiet too.

As an extra boost of motivation, I signed up for a few virtual races one night while staring at the tv. One of those races was the Giants Race- Sacramento 5K. Why not?

I headed out for my virtual race on Saturday afternoon. It was nice and sunny, and I figured why not? Even for a virtual race, I went way too fast out of the gate and flamed out hard by the end. I knew I was out of shape and this just kind of proved it ha! It took me 36 minutes to run a 5k! My PR is like 10 minutes faster, ha! Once I added in the warm up, I was just under for 4 miles for the day. Oh and I broke the cardinal rule of “race” day- wore something new. Oh the chafe!

I meant to run on Sunday. It was cold and cloudy and kind of perfect. But that also made it perfect to laze around under a blanket and watch tv. Can you guess which one won?

So this week, I have a new goal… try to get my head on straight. Everything else will fall in line right?

How was your week?

Run!, Training

14- Destructo

If you’ve been around this blog for awhile, you may have cottoned on to my proclivity for inflicting injury upon myself.

For crying out loud, my last 2 concussions were self inflicted (albeit accidentally). Oh and let’s not forget the time I gave myself second degree burns with ice packs. Actually I did forget- thanks Timehop for that memory.

And yet, even I am baffled on how I broke myself this time. By making the bed and sneezing. Even writing it makes me feel like an idiot. 🤷‍♀️🤦‍♀️

I admit that changing the sheets on my bed is not the easiest- it’s up against two walls with a headboard but come on?!

So my body was contorted into a odd position messing with the fitted sheet. I felt a sneeze coming on but tried to hold it in for some reason. Not only did it not work, I felt an immediate sharp pain along my left side, heard a pop and I hit the floor. I have a pretty damn good pain tolerance but this…. Any movement made me want to scream, I damn near cried.

Once I managed to get myself off the ground, I made it to the bed and was pretty much prone for all of Saturday afternoon/ evening. Sunday, I made it to the chair but it’s not much better. However I did make it though Sunday without meds. Saturday was not the same. I had more OTC pain pills than ever before. My neurologist would be so proud- well sort of, she gets frustrated with me that I don’t use my stronger migraine meds when I have a bad one. I don’t like pain pills. So the fact that I took multiple days how bad it hurt.

So yeah, that’s how my week ended- how about the beginning?

Monday was good and I got in a short run after work. I don’t want to drive places to run but I don’t want to just run my driveway, so I stopped at another work office about a mile from my house, parked and ran the neighborhood that way. I was not prepared for the sudden temp jump to over 70 though. Wow.

Wednesday through Friday kind of snowballed. I had my running gear at work but we have had some of the busiest days ever. Even though our hours are shorter, we stayed longer.

Saturday rolled around and thankfully I didn’t have to go to a store so I slept in and headed out for an early afternoon run. Wasn’t a bad 5k even if my stomach cramped in a bad way a little past mile 2 and I walked it home.

Then thanks to my destructo self, it was all downhill from there.

And while I was lying in bed not moving, I decided to finally cave and sign up for Disney+ except it won’t play on my tv! Grrr.

At least it poured all day Sunday so I didn’t feel pissed I wasn’t out for a short run.

So how was your week? Anyone else disaster prone?

Run!, Slacker

13- Keeping On

And we gotta keep moving on, or trying to.

Last week was a full week of work and every time I think I have things handled, the rules changed again. Half of the building is closed and hours are shortened. I am rolling with it the best I can and trying to put the best foot forward for my coworkers. Speaking of foot- I found out we can wear sneakers! It’s the little things. Except I am still wearing my skirts and dresses so not sure how that would look. Ha! Also have to find the funny when I can or I may lose my mind.

The weather was cold and crappy last week so staying inside wasn’t that tough. We had hail and heavy rain which caused chaos on the roads, like always but at least there were fewer cars out, right?

I was pretty lazy Monday and Tuesday but forced myself on the bike on Wednesday after work. I had actually been super soar in my shins after Sunday’s ride on the bike. I jokingly posted on Twitter that I felt like I’d given myself shin splints. Apparently that is actually a thing, who knew?

What I didn’t mention on Twitter was that I had been riding the bike barefoot. Yeah…. So for this 30 minutes, I was in new running shoes and compression socks. I also adjusted the seat and pedals. So much better.

Then back to being lazy on Thursday and Friday. Can I blame the rain?

On Saturday I ventured out for supplies. You know I always wondered if I would save money by eating out less and eating at home more. Nope. Put that test to bed.

Then I ventured out for my first run in weeks. I felt torn about it but it was also kind of great. I did one loop of my block for 2.2ish miles. Yeah, it’s a big loop. And I gained over 200 ft. Yeah, there’s a reason I drive across town often to run. I kind of felt like me again.

I think Sunday’s are going to be nap days because what else is there? Haha.

So 2 workouts out of 7 days. Yeah, I should probably work on that.

How was your week?

Run!

Just Stop

So here’s my question- Running alone is “currently” ok- social distancing and all.

But people aren’t running alone. Groups of 4-5 are together on the theory they will stay far enough a part. That cannot be guaranteed.

Also runners are making comments on how many people they see out- running, walking, etc. Tell me again how a crowd, no matter how small, is a good thing? And I see more of them every day. If you are typing those words on social media, there are too many people. Hell, if you are thinking those words when you are outside, there’s too many people.

Remember that old grocery store motto? 3’s a crowd? Come on people!

Trust me, I get it, running is my healthy way of relieving stress and right now I may rip my hair out. I am still working as my industry is considered essential which is fine I knew that shortly after I got the job. I am trying to present a calm front for my coworkers but don’t know if I am pulling that off.

I live with people and one of them qualifies as higher risk so there is that as well. Which actually might be the biggest point.

So yes, I need to run. Hell, if I am thinking optimistically, I have fall races to train for. However is my stress release worth the possible risk?

Yes, science says 6 feet is ok, science says solo outdoors is good for you. Thing is, science changes every day. Everything’s safe until it isn’t.

Part of me still thinks this is all overblown and that there is too much over reacting. But… what if I am wrong. What if it’s not an over reaction? Way I see it, better to tough it out now than suffer in something worse later.

Ok, maybe not a question, just a rant.

Oh and wash your damn hands.

Run!, Slacker

11- Unsteady

So, yeah, how is it going in your neck of the woods?

Last week started off pretty good actually and then descended into well, I am sure you all know.

Ok this was Wednesday

So, let’s go back to Monday– I headed out after work for a nice 3 miles. Ok, a cold 3. Winter finally brought the rain and it was so dark you couldn’t tell the time change had just happened. I stupidly didn’t pack a headband and when my ears get cold I am done. So, 3 it was.

I did something after work on Tuesday but can’t remember. Oh, it poured!

Wednesday was finally clear-ish and I headed out for a run. To be honest I wasn’t feeling it but ended up having a pretty great 4 miler. My apologies to the drivers who saw may have seen me dancing down the street.

This whole time, current events were starting to spike and I was wondering what was going to happen to my Spartan Trail Race over the weekend.

Running has been decent but there was an odd twinge in the my right leg-tendon or muscle something so I decided to rest on Thursday and just get in a good stretch. The news also dropped that my race was canceled on Sunday.

Then everything went to hell in a hand basket on Friday. As, I’s sure you all know. My migraines are partially induced by stress so I went into the weekend with a doozy. Work on Saturday and people crazy hoarding things didn’t help. Who stockpiles eggs?? Do they know something I don’t know??

No running happened last weekend, part rain storm, part migraine and part confusion.

Which remains. I need to run, my brain needs it but I am unsure. Also, I cannot work from and we are open for business. And I am in close proximity to someone who could qualify as higher risk. So I just don’t know.

Tell me something about your week.