I think I finally found some calm last week.
It wasn’t all sunshine and roses but the stress level decreased, I slept a little better and things were generally calmer. I am still sitting on some news before sharing it here but I was able to share it with the people who needed to know. Ok, that sounded more ominous than I meant it to.
And last week was full of creature encounters. We had a lizard get in the building at work and it took us 3 days to catch it and release it. A spider was lurking above my bed. A bat or a bird flew into my bedroom window in the middle of the night.
I was feeling spunky on Monday so I headed out for a few miles. I returned to the river path and while I stuck to the paved path, it was glorious. I so missed that route. I was equal parts impressed and embarrassed when an 8 year blew past me. He was on his way down the hill and I was going up. I didn’t feel any better when he blew past me when we were going the opposite directions either. Ha!! I did wonder why he was by himself though. While I loved the air and route of my run, my legs informed me that I should have rested after the previous day’s trail adventures. 3+ish miles.
Tuesday saw me listening to my protesting calves and sore foot and resting.
I was eager to run on Wednesday but my stomach had other plans. My rule of thumb is that if I am still getting sick 30 minutes before closing, running isn’t happening.
So of course, Thursday was the hottest day of the year so far. 95 degrees. I am slow as it is these days, so I was not ashamed of any walking. I ran when I wanted to and walked when I wanted to. I did keep it short though- 2 miles.
Work things were happening on Friday and I was looking forward to a relaxing weekend.
Saturday and I promised my mother for Mother’s Day we could try the beach for a run as long as it wasn’t crowded. Yay for clouds! She walked and I ran. I knew the humidity was going to do a number on my lungs so I told her I was only going to do 3 miles. Then I figured the pier had to be less than 2 miles from the dog beach where we started and I wanted to get to the pier. I was very wrong. The pier was 5k from the dog beach, ha! So my 3 mile run turned into 6 plus. I also have the habit of never checking the tide so I was racing the high tide. Some places I came to a crawl as I had to go over rocks. My shoes and socks were so drenched that I took them off after 5 miles and did the last bit barefoot.
As I had already cleared more miles this week than so many of the past weeks, I wasn’t stressing a run on Sunday. Instead, I finally cleaned my car. Oh boy, it needed it. And tires but that’s another story.
So just under 12 miles for the week. It’s sad that that is an improvement but it is what it is. Gotta keep moving forward.
How was your week?
I am my own worst enemy and I know this.
However this knowledge doesn’t prevent me from continuing to self sabotage.
We close an hour earlier right now. So even when we are running late it’s not as late as it used to be. Is this helping me run more? It should be but instead I am at my lowest mileage in years. And this was going to be a marathon year. Now, that is highly unlikely for a variety of reasons.
I’m not having a pity party here but keep hoping that the more I acknowledge it, the sooner I might actually start to work on new habits.
However that was not last week. Last week, I only ran twice. And let’s be real, both times had more walking than running. But really any time outside moving is helpful to my mindset but I can’t seem to force myself out there.
I braved the heat for a few miles on Tuesday. I am not ready for the 90+ temps yet so kept it short and sweet with a little over 2 miles. Sluggish ones but they weren’t too bad otherwise.
Then it was a lot of telling myself to run every day after work but not following through.
Saturday rolled around and while I thought about running, I chilled with a book or 2 and took a long nap. More like coma and it included some trippy dreams too. Even running ones- I dreamed the whole bottom of my feet were blisters. It was so real, I even checked my feet when I woke up. Ha!
On Sunday, I ventured a few minutes away from my house- seriously less than 10- and hit up a trail. It has a brutal uphill-in-direct-sun beast so I was hoping it would be empty. It wasn’t but everyone maintained distance well. And I decided to go straight up the hard way. Ok, maybe I was dared, but damn my legs were shaking after that climb. The sunshine and dirt was exactly what I needed.
I forgot my watch so I tried my Coros pod and app and clearly I don’t know how to work it properly.
So a little less than 5 miles for the week.
My goal is try and conquer the whole morning runner thing…. I just don’t know how.
How was your week?
It’s been a while, I feel some rambling coming on.
I’ve started to realize how much I lie to myself. Ok, maybe not lie but definite denial. And the oddest thing made me realize it. We were talking about movie tastes at work and I was saying that I am not a fan of anything violent like horror movies or crime movies. Then that evening I realized what a liar I was as I was watching a TV show about mostly about murders and reading my book about homicide detectives. Lies!
What’s sad is I was convinced I was telling the truth. So what else have I erroneously convinced myself of?
Running has been more hit than miss these days. I am trying not to stress about it but stress comes so easy these days.
It doesn’t help that we seem to have skipped Spring. I feel like we went from 50 to 90. I am not ready for that.
I finally caved and started watching The Mandalorian. Still not sure how I feel about it. And I am going to get some hate for this but is it me or does it have Firefly vibes?
I was planning on going to 2 concerts this spring. Papa Roach and Shinedown were playing in LA- April and May, respectively- and damn it, I was going. Infest turned 20 in April and I was finally going to see them. Instead, all concerts are canceled and I am blasting music in my car like I am 20. Who needs to hear anyways?
Oh, I bought my first pair of blue light blocking glasses. Not sure how I feel about those either.
Oh and change is coming… but I can’t talk about it. Ha!
Happy Friday! I’m looking forward to my weekend nap.
How are you holding up?
Another week, another… well something.
I think I need to stop waiting for things to calm down. It’s just adding stress. I feel like a giant stress ball these days. I know I am not the only one. I used to think I handled stress well. Ha!
Then the heatwave hit town and people got super cranky. And road ragey. I swear there were almost 3 accidents on my way home from work. Someone just let me hide.
And help, my mother keeps sending me TikTok videos. 😂
I made it out for a run on Monday! Except, I didn’t. All day long I was looking forward to my run. I changed after work and headed for my neighborhood. Once I started it was like the past few weeks caught up to me and I was so tired and just not feeling it. So instead I walked and breathed and just tried to look at things differently. Like how did I miss all the 50-60 foot tall trees? Sometimes it pays to slow down. 2 miles.
Plan was to take Tuesday off and run on Wednesday. I mean it was Earth Day! Except I didn’t run and right now I can’t remember why.
I did make it out on Thursday. It was warm and I was slow but other than that I felt pretty ok. I am getting the feeling that I am going to need to adjust to the heat rather quickly this year. 3ish miles.
I actually took my running gear on Friday but I don’t know why. HA!
Saturday morning arrived and I woke knowing the the migraine that had been lurking around the corner was now front and center. I tried to sleep in to fight it but failed. I barely did anything but hide in a dark room and rest on Saturday. Boo.
Sunday was more dealing with the migraine hangover. And a fight with a broken ceiling fan. We were not defeated though and a new fan is spinning away as I type.
So, yeah 5ish miles for the week. I am really struggling with motivation right now. Again.
How was your week?
I had such a plan.
And it was a good one!
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Knockaround wants to talk about plogging and the planet? I’m in, sign me up! I’ve been toying with the idea of adopting a street in my town. This would just give me that last push! My mother and I were talking about a big trash pick up party- us and her tennis team- we were making plans.
Then the world went a little sideways.
While litter still drives me absolutely mad, suddenly the idea of plogging even with gloves was a little off-putting. Especially since I kind of didn’t venture outdoors except to go to work in the first weeks. Which was not good for my psyche.
Turns out I can’t just hide inside anymore, running has opened up so much more to me. You know, I was the treasurer of the hiking and environmental club in high school? Except I don’t remember any actual hiking. Hmmm. Then I graduated high school, started working full time and got lazy.
It wasn’t until I started running that I rediscovered how much I loved nature and being outside. Part of that came from the running of my first real trail race. Which was a complete accident. I swear there was nothing said about trails in the race description. Oops.
With the change in circumstances, Knockaround decided to focus on how awesome the Earth is. And I needed the encouragement and reminder to take a moment (or few) and just take in what nature had to offer. I feel like I needed something else to focus on and just try to decompress. Which has become a lot harder these days. I’ve been sticking to my neighborhood but have been finding the beauty where it is. We could all use that right now.
Mother Nature is showing us how resilient she is right now and we need to take notes. I’ll keep taking in all the nature moments I can right now.
Of course in my favorite shades- Knockaround. And I just ordered myself another pair. You can’t have too many, right?
How are you decompressing these days?
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