rant – Slacker Runner

But this isn’t giving up no this is letting go
Out with the old dreams I’ve borrowed
The path I carve from here on out will be my own
A path to take me home

Most of my runs lately have had me thinking deep thoughts. Maybe facing some truths too. I claimed that this was the year of no goals but I let myself get swayed by the dark side, the numbers side. It’s all too easy to get caught up with social media and fall into the comparison trap. Denying it can only dig you deeper and deeper into the hole. Combine that with a bunch of crappy things happening outside of running this year and I think I’m falling apart. Not completely but I’m starting to crack.

Which means a lot of things but one of those is letting go of those pesky numbers goals that snuck back up on me. I’ve become a little too mired in pace and miles. I realized the other week that I have run more miles this year than any year previous. Right after that, I realized how close I am to actually pulling off 1000 miles in a year. In other words, 2015’s failed goal. But let’s be honest, 2 hundred mile months right now would break me. Likely make me hate running too. I don’t want that, I want to enjoy running just to run for the rest of year. Maybe next year too. Who know? I want to enjoy races for awhile.

Thankfully, my iPod is still on shuffle all. The perfect song came on at the right time today.

This is Letting Go– Rise Against

So this me letting go. I saying it out loud…and in print. Hopefully, you’ll see a shinier Slacker in the coming months.

Is it 10? I think it’s 10. When is Friday? Actually, is it December yet? I need a vacation. 😛

This week has been like-

I need to ramble.

So my identity was stolen. That’s fun. I got a piece of mail congratulating me on my new Discover account. Umm, no?

I shouldn’t be around breakable things. Remember that post where I talked about shattering my foundation bottle all over the bathroom floor? Yeah, did it again. 😓 Went to work foundation-less this morning and that will likely continue until the weekend. Who needs makeup anyway? Right? #destructogirl I used to have that on a c

I have new dietary restrictions. No eggs, no dairy, no soy, no seafood, no nuts, no wheat. It’s a little harder than I thought it would be. I’ve mostly figured out breakfasts and lunches but fall apart when it comes to dinner. Tonight was pizza night- oops. It’s still a work in progress.

Speaking of food, I still haven’t figured out fueling for long runs. My 13 miler last weekend was on an empty stomach. Other than running out of water, I felt fine. But maybe it’s a good thing I haven’t figured it out yet- now I can find one that fits the new restrictions. Any suggestions?

American Ninja Warrior. I love this show. Watch it shamelessly every time it’s on. I like rooting for the contestants even while some make me shake my head in disbelief. Sometimes I think I want to try obstacle style races. Then I remember that I have a tendency to run into walls. 😛

The Rock Clock. So, I kind of the love the Rock. Think he’s pretty awesome. A admit I downloaded his app- The Rock Clock. It’s my alarm for all those early morning (for me) runs. Except last weekend I learned that it doesn’t work if your phone’s on silent- kind of overslept. Oops!

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