I Needed That

I really, really needed that.

If you’ve been along for the ride awhile, you may have heard me mention a time or a million that my stomach and I don’t get along.   Also that it’s been a rough 10 months, stomach wise.   That roughness carried over into my running and things slowed down.    I was so gung-ho to set PR’s in 2014 and it just didn’t happen.   Even though I finally accepted that and moved on, a part of me was still frustrated.   Also with doctors but that’s another story.

While I have trained pretty consistently this year, I am still not where I was before my flare.  Walk breaks have become a part of run, long or short, slow or fast.  Don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with walking, heck I look forward to those breaks on most runs.    But long runs stressed me out.   I don’t know if I hid it well or not but I was beginning to dread long runs.    I felt like I was moving so slow and that I walked too often but just couldn’t seem to pick it up.FullSizeRender (6)Beyond that I have a serious mental block when it comes to long runs past 10 miles.  I love half marathons but double-digit slow runs by myself?  Umm, not so much.   I have done one 12 mile run outside of a race.  One- and it took me 2.5 hours.  Actually it might have been longer but I’ve blocked it out, I am pretty sure I walked the last 2 miles.   So when I saw so many 12-16 milers on my training schedule, I had a mini freak out.   And I haven’t run a single one.   Once again I topped out at 10 for most of the runs.    Which was noticeable in Wine Country when I hit a wall at 10. Did that make me go out and run 12 the next weekend? No.    Then my doctor changed my diet pretty drastically and I missed 2 long runs in a row.  Crap.   I knew I could not miss another with SLO being so close.

While I am looking forward to my 5k race tomorrow, it is one that I know leaves me super sore.   So sore that I knew banking on a 10-12 mile run with a fast finish on Sunday was probably foolish.    Because work was a little crazy this week and I worked longer days on Monday and Tuesday and couldn’t leave the building on Wednesday and Friday, my boss said she was going to try and let me leave a little early on Thursday.   This sparked an idea but I wasn’t fully committed.  A small part of me thought I could move my long run to Thursday instead.  My 5K race is not a PR race but more for fun, so I figured if I was a little tired for it that was fine.    But I was still on the fence about if I even wanted to run that many miles after working all day.   Or if I even could.  IMG_0023I got off an hour early so I headed to the lake to run a few laps.  My stomach was the crankiest it’s been since I started this new diet, but then I had cheated the day before.   I also wasn’t dressed for a long run.  I wasn’t wearing compression socks nor a 10+ mile sports bra.  Yes, I have different sports bras I wear depending on the length of the run.    If I did run long I was going to split it. 7-8 miles at the lake and then I was going to head to the river path for the remainder.  My mother was thinking about meeting me for the second part.   So, in other words, I wasn’t expecting much and anticipating another Slacker moment.

I warmed up with my usual slow first mile before picking it up.    Miles 2 and 3 clocked in at 9:57 and 10:10.  So not long run pace.  I should have been aiming for 10:45-11:15.  I went out too fast, there was no way I was maintaining.  I was irritated with myself and doubting that I would even follow through with driving to the river path.  Then my mother texted that she wasn’t going to make it.  There went that motivation to follow through.    Ok fine, I was just going to run until I was tired or my stomach rebelled, I figured 6 miles tops. haterunning Around mile 6, I noticed that I was still running.  As in, I hadn’t taken a single walk break.  Not one and I felt pretty good.  Huh?  I did stop for a bathroom break but decided to just keep running after that.  Mile 7 and I was running.  Mile 8 still running.  Mile 9, more running.  Still no walk breaks.   I was starting to think I might actually pull this off.  Miles 9, 10,  and 11 all came in at 10:00 or under.   Did you see that 11?!?!  I cleared 10 miles on a long run!!!!!!  I wanted to throw a party and celebrate but I was surrounded by strangers!     I stopped my Garmin at 11 and walked the 3/4 of a mile back to my car.

Dudes, I ran the whole thing- no walking breaks!!  Who am I?  And 11 miles at that pace and not racing?!  I know it’s not much by some standards but for me and the past year, I was stoked.     It also reinforced that consistent training works and does pay off even if you don’t see it immediately.   I was seriously beginning to doubt I could even hit double digits after the last few weeks.  I was feeling rough and not confident in my running ability at all.   I had chalked my last race up to being a fluke and was mentally preparing myself for a rough race in a few weeks.    I didn’t know how badly I needed a long run- a good, long run.    Until I pulled it off.  🙂  Bring it on SLO!

Lapping the lake so many times, I passed a few people multiple times.  I was wearing a tank that says “I hate running” and that was getting a few comments.   🙂    I passed one pair of older ladies multiple times.  They said something to me once but I didn’t quite catch it.  Another 2 times past them and they stopped me.  One asked how many I was doing because I had to be near 20.  I wish!  I said that I was aiming for 11 miles and only had 3/4 of a mile to go.    I passed them again on the cool down walk and they said good job.  🙂

I still want to do a little happy dance when I think about yesterday’s run.   Training works, who knew?   I think I need to get this McMillan plan laminated for future use.  Haha.  Now I should probably get some sleep, I have a mountain to run up in the morning.  🙂

How do you feel about long runs?

Who is racing this weekend?

What was your last great run?

28 thoughts on “I Needed That

  1. Congrats on your run!! That’s awesome!

    I feel you on needing a different sports bra for long runs than shorter runs. Additional distance means additional chafing haha.

    I used to have such a mental block about long runs. I would get myself way too worked up over them. These days I just don’t even think about it and that helps!


    1. Thank you!

      Yeah, I probably should have packed both just in case but I was in such an odd mood. But I might have avoided the later irritation. 🙂

      I tend to go back and forth about long runs. Sometimes I love them but more often than not I dread them. I really need to work on that. 🙂


  2. What!!!!! Stop the presses!!!! That’s great news Fallon this long overdue and much deserved. I’m so happy for you and proud of you! 🙂 I do long runs but honestly I prefer going short and fast but I know they are necessary. The length long runs can play mind games with me also at times so I try breaking the run up into segments mentally and that helps. My last memorable or significant run was last Sundays long run.


    1. Thank you! It was such a great feeling, I rode that endorphin high for a while! I think 8 is good for me. I know I need to run the long runs and I have run more this training cycle than others but they just stress me out. Maybe it’s the slacker in me. 🙂

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  3. Congratulations on having such a great run!!

    Everyone dreads long runs. They just aren’t fun, nor are they supposed to be. You just have to force yourself to get out there – the hardest part of doing a long run is just deciding to get out there and DO it already.


  4. Great news! Gotta love those runs where the miles just fly by. I know I have a definite mental-block distance on long runs but the more you do it the easier it gets!


  5. Yay! Congrats on a great long run, Fallon! I tend to dread the long runs too UNLESS I know I’m meeting other people. That’s why I do Sunday morning long runs at my local running store (and I’m NOT a morning person) because it’s the only way for me to not put off my long run until I lose the motivation. The long run struggle is real!!! But it feels great to complete it and I hope you can really build on this run of yours. It was seriously great! 🙂


    1. Thank you! I think running with others would make them so much better. I just can’t find anyone to run with. I did just hear of a running club a few towns over so I may check that out. But yes, the feeling after completing a long run is kind of awesome!


  6. This post made me happy 🙂 Yay for awesome long runs and way to kill all those miles without stopping, and at such a good pace!!

    I’m not a huge lover of long runs. The most I’ve gone without stopping is a 10K, and that was at a glacial pace. Anything longer than that I’ve done a run-walk schedule. I’ve also done most of my long runs in the heat, so that’s probably part of the reason why I don’t like them! 🙂

    My last awesome run was my last 5-miler with my run club. I didn’t love most of it while it was happening (we were going faster than I was used to) but I loved the company and moral support, and I felt wicked awesome as soon as we were done and I realized I’d done so well!


    1. Thanks!! I am still pretty stoked! 🙂

      Pretty much all of long runs, well any run these days, have walking parts in them. I hear you on the heat factor, I know I have some really hot runs coming up.

      Company while running is awesome! Congrats on the speedy 5 miler- such a great feeling!


  7. Hooray! I’m so happy to read this post 🙂 The longest training run I’ve done was 10 miles, and it felt horrible the whole time, so I’m glad you got a good one in, and are feeling good about SLO. Can’t wait to hear how it goes!


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